Thursday, January 24, 2013

The Circle of Life: Day 24

Thursday, January 24th, 2013

Wow.  So much has happened in my life since I blogged here last!  Our precious new Granddaughter, Lilyanna, was born a week early!  She was born on Sunday, Jan 6th, at 8:28am, and weighed in at 7 pounds 2 ounces.  She is absolutely beautiful, and looks just like her Mommy and Daddy!  Breanna is a wonderful and proud new big Sister, and got to feed Lilyanna her very first bottle after she was born!  Such a blessing... She's finally here.  Mellissa can rest now, there will be no more false labor and trips to Labor & Delivery for us;  Lilyanna is here, she's safe and healthy, and beautiful as can be!

Lilyanna's birth is part of the reason I have not blogged in so long.  I have still remained on task with my workouts and Clean Eating, but I have been so exhausted mentally, I just needed to take a break.  I actually had to end my Challenge Group that I started on FB, due to unforseen circumstances and life challenges that came my way earlier this month.  I just need to focus on my journey right now. 

 
There is so much more at stake here instead of just my health or weightloss journey.  I am going through a variance of issues that are really hard to deal with.  But, having released them all to God, along with my stress, I know that my life will go in the direction that the Lord intends for it to be, and I will be my best "me" that I can, until I figure out where that road will lead me.

I had entered a contest on Bodybuilding.com earlier this month, but decided to withdraw from it for a variety of reasons.  I think I may have hurt my trainer's feelings by joining the challenge, so I withdrew from it. I respect and love my trainer. I never want her to feel betrayed or that I have stepped on her toes.  When I first read about the challenge, I though it would be a great contest to get involved in to further work on my goals, but within the first week of entering, a lot of problems and issues arose in my life that took precedence over the 3 month contest.

This is not an excuse!  I feel that God was trying to tell me to SLOW DOWN and handle my own personal business before putting my self out there for a contest.  As the week progressed, I know I made the right decission in withdrawing.  There will be other contests and other forums to show my hard work and effort that is paying off.  It's just not time yet. I can deal with that!

I came down with a nasty cold and sinus infection last week, and have been under the weather ever since.  I've been nursing my cold with Vitamin C, Airborne, ginger and hot matcha tea (which my awesome trainer sent me!  Everyone, go check out her webpage, "Tea Trim"... get yourself some!) and lot's of raw fruits and veggies.  I do feel like I am fighting this cold immensly, and my immune system is responding wonderfully!  I am praying for a speedy recovery!

On a sad note, my Grandmother, Patricia Smith, went to be with the Lord 2 nights ago.  This has been hard for me to accept, because I loved my grandmother so very much.  She was a special, unique, beautiful woman who enjoyed life to the fullest, and never judged a soul.  She was the most honest and respectful/respected woman I know.  It does make me happy, though, to know that little miss Breanna Ray has her Grandma up there with her, to love her and keep her company till I get there.

There have been lot's of changes in my life this month.  Both good and bad situations have arose that make me realize change is inevitable, and I am on the right track with my goals.  Things may not be perfect yet, but they will be.  I am moving toward the right goals and action plans for my life, and that is what this month has really been about for me:  UNDERSTANDING, ACCEPTING, AND PUSHING FORWARD.  And, I have.

I have lost 4 pounds this month in total.  That is 2 pounds behind goal.  But it's okay.  I am not defined by the number on the scale.  I will keep pushing forward, and I will make my long term goal.  Just keep moving and pushing through the hard times, and enjoy the good times.  I am still "me" regardless of my weight or measurements, and I intend on enjoying my journey every step of the way.

XOXO ~ The Kaptain

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